How I am Right Now.

My mindset has changed.

I think differently because of what happened.

Everything I see and hear has a little thought of him tied to the end.

I wonder for a split second what he would have said about it or what he would have done.

My heart is fragile and tender, and when anyone pushes too hard, the little shell around the edge crumbles and the ache in the deepest part is disturbed.

I hate that it is that way, but my identity is entwined in pain.

I don't go anywhere.

Unless it is to a relatives house or Dickson, and sometimes to Sonic.

But every time I go out it is the same.

I am completely terrified of seeing you.